Blessed

Ok, I'd like to say up front that this post is going to be touchy feely. I'd just like to tell everyone that although, I've been fighting lots of negative things here of late, I feel truly blessed. I've got a truly amazing wife. She is so awsome. It still amazed me that a cracker like myself could end up with such an amazing lady. Also for the first time in my life I'm happy that I don't live in a really crappy rental apartment/house. We were lucky enough to buy our own home. (that I talked Leah into having wired for surround sound) I also have a great group of friends. I was pretty sad there for about a year, because of my serious lack of good friends. Well thank you guys for putting up with me, I love ya. Finally, I have these two little furballs that eat a lot, sleep alot and like to cuddle with me when I watch movies. They make me happy. Thanksgiving break has finally arrived. Time for us all to go hang out with our familes, gourge ourselves on food, and take naps. I think Thankgiving is one of my favorite holidays. It's not as commercial as Christmas, and we all just enjoy being around each other.(and eating a lot of food) Everyone enjoy yourself, relax, and realize that the semester is finally about to come to a close.

Sunday, Sunday, Sunday

There sure seems to be a lot of stuff going on in the world here lately. Arafat died. That was an extremely short sentence was it not? The French seem to have gotten themselves in a bit of a mess. I'm not really sure what has happened. I need to research it some more. I heard something about them bombing another country's airforce, but that is all I know. You know we definately do not live in a boring world. I just don't understand why the human race has to be in constant conflict. I know that there are major philosophical difference between say the east and the west, and there are also major theological differences, but come on people. Why is it unjust if two individuals who have opposite beliefs kill each other, but if two countires that have opposing viewpoints launch a war against each then those murders are patriotic, just and noble. It just seems that we are predespositioned to have a major freaking war every couple of decades or so. It could be that I'm realitvely young still and am only begining to really see how different countries interact with each other, but it really feels like there is some kind of building world tension. Of course there has been conflict in the middle east for ever. It just doesnt' make sense. You truly would think that one day the Palestinians and Israelis would say you know fucking what? Our great grandfathers killed each other, our fathers maimed each other and that is quite enough. We can still hate each other, but I'm not going to try and kill your children, if you would just leave me alone.
That's enough of that. It's time to do a math paper that I've been putting off. I've gotta make a bunch of graphs and write a paper about it. So long fun here comes the homework.

Running Fool

Well got back from flying tonight. I threw lots of stuff out of my airplane tonight. I'm kind of frustrated tonight so hopefully it will be acceptable if I vent. I failed my guard fitness test. That really kind of bums me out. Of course I was still sick when I took it. That probably didn't help me a whole lot. At any rate I'm probably going to have to go see the commander again, and he will probably put me on a fitness program. I'm curious to see how that is going to work. Because I can't very well skip school or work to go to it, and it's not going to help a whole lot if I only go 2 times a month. I'll just have to start running with David 3 time a week again. I'm still not sleeping well. I didn't wake up in time for theory today. That's not good. I think, I'll be all right though. Dr. Dickinson doesn't seem to take roll. Or at least a whole bunch of people in my class better hope not, for I'd hate to see half of the class fail. I guess I'd better say goodnight. That math homework in the dinning room certainly isn't doing itself. Blah!

Election Blues

Well, like a whole lot of other people I stayed up really late last night in anticipation of the election. David had a little election party. I was pretty optimistic at first. The numbers for Kerry looked pretty good. And then we had the invasion of the red states. It is pretty amazing when you stop and realize how divided our country seems to be politically. I was really bumed out about the marraige amendment passing in Arkansas. I just do not understand how people feel that they have the right to regulate how others live their lives. Does it really hurt anyone for two people who love one another to make a commitment to each other? I have a lot of gay friends and it truly hurts me that they cannot have a governtment recognized commitment to one another. I can understand why some Christians can disaprove of homosexuality. Of course disapproving of something another individual does, and going over to that person and saying you know what? Because of my religious beliefs I'm going to regulate your behavior from now on is something totally different. I have an idea, people of the Jewish persuasion don't believe in eating pork. So how about we pass an amendment to the constitution to limit everyone in the whole state of Arkansas from eating pork. That's probably a good idea don't you think. Eating lots of meat raises all kinds of health risks. Besides since people of the Jewish faith believe God doesn't want them to eat pork no one else should either.